I want to start by telling you that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that your life isn't what it should be. I'd hoped your father and I could make it work, but it just wouldn't. We tried, and sometimes two people just can't seem to get along. It doesn't mean that we love you any less. We just couldn't seem to love each other the way a mother and father should. I'm hoping that the advice I've heard turns out to be good, that a happy mommy is a good mommy. That it what I strive to be for you every day, a good mother. The decision was difficult and heartbreaking but hopefully it all turns out OK. There isn't a day that goes by that I question that decision. I pray that you don't resent me for it when you're older, that you come to understand. I wanted so much more for you. Things aren't the greatest right now but it'll turn around soon, its got to.
At 6 months you're already an amazing lil man. You bring us both a million smiles every day. Your temperament thus far makes me think you'll turn out to be a great young man and great person.
Your father is a great man, remember that. He and I have our disagreements but one thing is certain...you come first. He loves you more than anything, even if he doesn't show it well.
Your sister is amazing also. Hopefully you will be able to have a fairly close relationship with her and get to see her more than you do now. She's beautiful, inside and out. You two look a lot a like.
I love you Bos man!
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