Calm

This anxiety medication is amazing! I love it! Scott says he doesn't see a difference but I can feel it. I'm still a little drowsy with it but I'll have to get passed that. As good as this stuff makes me feel...I'll find a different way to 'wake up'. I went to the doctor today for a follow up and she knocked the prescription down to 10MG, which is what I've been taking anyways but she had given me 20MG pills so I was cutting them in half. Now, maybe I can try and cut these in half and see how they work. Yay for drugs! lol

I've been worried about Christmas for a long time now. Technically it was Jon's turn to have Boston and since he hasn't seen him in 4 months I was worried he would just show up and try and take him. Course, I wouldn't let that happen but I would still fight with myself over it being the right thing for my son or not. Well, I turns out I didn't have to worry at all. I got a 4AM text from Jon on December 22nd telling me how much he loves me and misses me and is miserable...blah, blah, blah. I didn't respond (as I told him I wouldn't unless it was at a decent hour) and haven't heard from him since. No call, no presents, no attempt to see his kid on Christmas. What a piece of work. Oh well, I got to have Christmas with my baby boy! It may sound selfish but at this point....after 4+ months...I don't care. Forget him!

Boston made out pretty well for Christmas. Santa got him a big train table, and he got cars and trucks, and toys galore from everyone else. I've packed up some old unused toys and put them in his closet to make room for all the new ones. Now I just need to get his bedroom decorated so it feels more like a home and he can possibly wander up there to play with other toys.

If you're friends with me on Facebook you may have seent he pictures of the necklace that Scott got me ('from Boston'). I love it! It's so perfect and so thoughtful. He likes me a little bit. lol

I really wish I had internet at my house...I want to work on Boston's Shutterfly book and be able to post pictures on here.

Tippy has yet to be taken to her new home. I still have to get her shots updated before they take her though. If it wasn't so cold out I'd be playing with her a lot more. I'm really going to miss her. She's so sweet and so cute and so smart!. She did kinda tear up my carpet the other day. She got outta the kitchen and got into some things. That and her hair are the only bad things. She's a bit destructive sometimes. I love her though and I'm going to be very sad when I drop her off at her new home. :*(

Things seem to be getting better. Maybe it's the drugs lol Scott and I are getting along a lot better. Money situation is getting better. I just gotta get control of my spending. Once I get my tax return things (lawyer, medical bills, credit card) should get paid off and I'll have a clean slate.  :)

Planning on starting some serious potty training this weekend. Lil man is going into underwear and staying in them (except at night) all weekend. This is one of many methods I have to try. Hopefully it works and I dont have to try any others! We'll see. I might need to get a carpet cleaner after this weekend! Haha!

Back to work!