Anxiety

Well, I went to the doctor last Monday to see what was wrong with me. I told her what was going on and thought that maybe I was just having anxiety issues. With everything I told her she agreed and prescribed me with some meds. So far I feel MUCH calmer. I know they say it takes a while for the total effects to kick in but I can already tell that my mind is more 'at ease'. It did have some negative effects...I felt nauseous, very drowsy, and had pretty restless sleep. I'm still pretty drowsy a week later but the nausea is gone. She told me to take half a pill for a few days and then move to a whole one. I think I will stick with half...otherwise I will be knocked out or feel totally sedated. Now I just need to work on my concentration. Maybe if I had more work to do at work I'd be a little better off but I'll get to asking when I have a chance.

I'm finally getting child support again so that is a big weight lifted. I have had no contact with Jon since November 4th and he has yet to see Boston again since his birthday party (Aug 18th). So, going on 4 months now. He better not even attempt to take him on Christmas because I will probably throw a fit (couldn't care less if that sounds child-like). Legally he gets him from 8am-6pm Christmas day. So, being the total bitch that I am...he WILL NOT be taking him up to Fargo. He can take him some other time once he developes some sort of relationship with his son again. Boston no longer asks about him or mentions him. He does recognize his picture but that's about it. It no longer makes me mad, it only makes me hurt for Boston. He deserves better.

Boston and Scott have gotten closer. Which I like. B needs a man in his life. Although....he does have his Pa and OOOOOHHHH how he LOVES his Pa! No doubt the best grandpa my lil man could have! (best grandma too ;)  ). Scott and I do not see eye to eye on some things with Boston but I just remind him that he is MY son lol I think the stage that Boston is in is hard for Scott to understand. The "No's", the refusing to listen, the crying to get what he wants...to me, its all a natural thing. Just a stage, that if handled correctly will end with age. Scott does not agree and doesn't like him telling us 'no'. Whatever though. He can bite me! lol

Saturday afternoon my mo and I met with two families that were interested in taking Tippy. The first family was great, they had two other dogs that seemed very loved and cared for but they had a younger daughter who really liked to play and climb all over the dogs and I just wasn't sure how Tippy would handle that. There have been times where Boston has gone to hug her and she kinda gets upset. She's never snapped or 'growled' at him but she gives him a bit of a warning and that little girl just made me nervous. The second family had children that were a bit older and probably not at physical with their dog. They mentioned having a big backyard and lots of dogs in the neighborhood that they play with. I think their son will be happy to have a dog that will fetch, their current dog wont, and Tippy LOVES to. They aren't able to take her until January because they're going on a holiday trip to Texas for a week and didn't want ot put Tippy through all those changes. Gives me time to say goodbye :( I know this is better for her and this is what she deserves but it still breaks my heart. She's the sweetest dog ever. I will really miss her :(

I should probably get to work...