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So I should really be working but I can't concentrate. As some of you may know or have heard, Scott is moving back. He says it is for his family...that he had a revelation while he was gone and wants to develop/mend the relationships he should've had with all of them. He is going to live with his mom until he can get her back on her feet. He is going to work remotely with his new job for 30 days see where it goes from there. He states that he is much clearer and knows what he wants now.

He also tells me that he loves me and wants to be with me and will do anything for me to give him another chance. Unfortunately, I do not know if I can. I had just gotten to be OK with him being gone and now he's coming back. He thinks I have moved on, I haven't. At least not with another person. Maybe with my life. I've come to be OK with him not being here and me being alone. I'm at a total loss of what to do. I do love him, as stupid as it may seem, but it is going to take A LOT on his part to prove anything. Quite honestly, I'm not sure I should give him that chance. I'm torn...completely torn. Right now, all I can think about it the pain he put me through by leaving.

I skipped work yesterday because my brain was overwhelmed. I took Boston to the babysitter, went home and slept. Off and on until about 11. I had completely intended on going shopping and buying Boston some new clothes and me some new work clothes but once I actually got to the stores I wanted to shop at I had no desire to shop. Why would I? I had the time and money...why would I WANT to shop?! Blah.

I don't know what to do...give him a chance or not?

Blah. I have a headache just thinkin about it again....