As my last post stated I wanted to change the way I went about doing things. Mostly with my attitude towards this. I'd become negative and almost...spiteful? That may not be the right word....
That was two days ago. I've made the conscious decision to be more positive and more loving. With that decision I made on Wednesday night, I already FEEL better. That decision along with eating better the past two days has made a big difference already.
Thursday morning I cooked 2 slices of bacon before I left for work, packed two eggs with a couple cherry tomatoes and a jalapeno. While we were getting ready I did not hurry Boston along as usual and I did not critique anything he did. I let him be a 3 year old boy (tooting while he pee'd...then sticking his butt out and making more farting noises). Not a big deal...not everything is a big deal. Gotta learn to let it go. I'm almost always a little early for work so that 10 seconds of him being a normal goofy boy...was well worth it. I don't want to get mad anymore because in all actuality there are very few things he does that I really need to get mad about.
(other than the bacon, my breakfast was horrible by the way...)
For lunch Thursday I knew I didn't want the usual fast food junk and after packing my breakfast I'd forgotten about lunch. I checked out the meals for a Paleo diet that I found and came up with something similar (obviously no spot on because I have a very hard time eating veggies and fruits) So, I went to Hy-Vee and bought spinach wraps, spinach leaves with almond and cherry bits, bleu cheese crumbles, and a balsamic vinaigrette. Plus tuna, mayo, and strawberries. I can honestly say it was pretty freakin' good! I also drink 2 liters of water throughout the day. I felt great! and my 'new found positivity' helped also.
Scott's company Christmas party was Thursday night at Blue Moon. (that kinda ruined the good eating I'd done all day!) My mom kept Boston overnight for us so we could go, Thanks Mom!! We had a great time! Scott got a pretty good bonus...brat! Had a few drinks and some good food and got home shortly after 10:30 I believe. He's surprisingly professional and very well spoken when he's around work people. Although, its a very laid back environment considering there's only about 10 employees total. He loves it, and I love that he loves it. It keeps him extremely busy but he needs that to be satisfied in a job.
This morning I got to sleep in a little since Boston was at my moms. Made two more slices of bacon, skipped the eggs because the thought of them from Thursday just made me want to gag. So, I had bacon for breakfast...along with a Sunkist (yea, I know). I had the "I drank beer last night" taste in my mouth and needed something to get rid of it. Then I drank water all morning. I was apparently hungrier than I thought because I started feeling sick, so...I made my yummy tuna wrap again and ate the rest of my strawberries. Good to go! Started nodding off at my desk so I drank the energy drink I'd bought on Wednesday to wake me up (yea, I know).
Then we went to HuHot for dinner and totally ruined my good eating again. Never said I'd be perfect and I will not get upset with myself because of it. I'm doing much better than I normally do. One step at a time. Pretty soon I need to add in the workout...that's for another day ;)
All in all I feel pretty good, physically and mentally. I don't feel like I'm in my normal fog and I love it. I find myself wanting to get upset about stupid things but then tell myself "nope, no negative thoughts allowed!"
Hoping I can keep it up for a while. I'm secretly hoping that all of this rubs off on Scott a little too :)
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